I continue to experience resistance today. I believe that I need to be kind to myself, slow down, and give myself space to integrate this project without feeling like every day’s post needs to be revelatory. Part of navigating a liminal season is appreciating the restful stillness that comes with the territory.

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Yesterday I threw what I first called a little tantrum, and I began to question whether this project could be detracting from my ultimate goal to improve my quality of life and identify and pursue a clear new path full of meaningful work and creativity. I could tell myself that I’m making excuses and avoiding the tasks I committed to doing, but I think it’s more than that. I think my mind and heart are trying to teach me how to balance between the poles of the extremes of hustle and flow. To truly linger in the liminal and appreciate it for the gift that it is.

As I’ve reflected on my feelings from yesterday and looked over the extensive tracking I do for my habits, somatics, and emotions, I think the evidence shows me that I am still spending too much time in the extreme end of “hustle” by requiring so much discipline for myself to complete this project. With that in mind, I’m giving myself some grace today and keeping this light.

Liminal spaces, by nature, are somewhat ethereal, and my personal tendency has been to try and create something tangible here in this liminal space – to give myself structure during a time and space where there is none. Those two things are in conflict though – the nature of the liminal and my own nature. Even so, I feel called to explore the corners of this liminal space, experiment with adding some structure to it, and see if that provides some peace and clarity in this season of the in-between.

But it’s okay to take it slow. It’s okay to give myself some breathing room here.

My First Qigong Teacher Training Class

This morning, I attended my first 2.5 hour long qigong teacher training class online. We practiced qigong for an hour of that, and I can already see how much this is going to support my goals. I’ve been practicing qigong for about a year and a half, but only using a few YouTube videos for instruction from time to time, and doing self-guided practice most days. What I noticed right away during the class is that even though I thought I was doing qigong as slow as it should be done, I actually have been rushing my practice quite a bit. I also noticed how amateur of a stage I am in, even after more than a year of practicing daily. I have a lot to learn!

The qigong practice from today is mirroring an example of how I can linger in this liminal with more skill. It’s only Day 30/100. Even though that feels like a big chunk of time, it’s still early in this process. I recognize a need to integrate more of what I’m digging up emotionally and learning about myself as I raise my awareness. I need to take breaks. To give myself more time to play. To make art. To get out in the sunshine and sweat.

So, I’m going easy on myself today. I’ll let this work rest a bit. Let it breathe.

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