When I first began on Labor Day, I didn’t know how much publishing 116,548 words over 100 blog posts would change my life. I called the project 100 Liminal Days because after selling and exiting my business in March, I didn’t know what to do with myself. I was in life’s in-between – a liminal space – and I was hella uncomfortable.

In the liminal seasons of life, it feels like time collapses. I needed to restore my soul’s sense of time and space. I now call this soul proprioception.

A few days after finishing the Summer Mentally Fit Class with Erick Godsey, I began a 100-day self-initiation experiment to be completed by 11:59 pm CT on December 31st:

• Work through The Artist’s Way book
• Maintain my keystone habits (my checklist)
• Hit publish on my blog – daily for 100 days
• Send my weekly newsletter sharing the posts

TLDR; I did the damn thing and now I know what to do with myself. I’m teaching qigong, writing another book, and sharing my art weekly. 100LD significantly changed my life! Check out this post to read my top 100 Lessons the liminal revealed (there could have been a longer list!)

Act One: Deep Dives, Identity Rewrites, and Boundary Setting

In the first 30-ish days, the work in The Artist’s Way challenged me and guided me. Realizing that I had no idea what I even like, I dove deep into my psyche looking for evidence of who I am, what I want, and where I am going. I interpreted my dreams, journaled deeply, noticed synchronicities and shared them, did IFS, and wrote thousands of words publicly – honestly and vulnerably.

• I asked myself, “Who am I without work?”
• I healed some creative injuries from my past and I traced the roots of my beliefs about artists being crazy and aloof and then revised my beliefs.
• I grounded myself in mindful living experiments.
• Then I explored various identities and their sources: the Christian identity, LGBTQ identity, and especially the “CEO/achiever” and “fixer” identities.
• I honored my past self and let go of old versions of me. I rewrote my identity and my myth.
• I also began naming “crazymakers/energy vampires” in my life as a key creative block, and practiced setting personal boundaries.

Notes of my authentic taste began to emerge…

• I allowed myself to write without censoring myself, and mythic language became a signature of sorts. I began to see that I love writing in symbols and metaphor. I shared a poem.
• I noticed that my love for my qigong practice was a seed to dharmic service to others, and I enrolled in a teacher certification class.
• I noticed anger and used this as a map to draw boundaries I needed to uphold and show myself that what I want and need matters.
• I faced the tension between authenticity and social acceptance.

Then a dream halted me: I was diving deep into a body of water, hoping to reach the bottom to push back up to the surface. I never reached the bottom and I returned to the surface at the last possible second. The interpretation showed me that I must let what I’m excavating breathe at the surface. I needed to integrate.

At the surface, I identified “high desire for wealth” as the missing variable in my manifestation formula. I could see that I am not lacking belief, but I was wrestling with whether I truly wanted “more,” or simply fair compensation and meaningful work.

Then, a synchronicity in my qigong training (“fascia catching Qi like a sail catches wind”) collides with an earlier dream about wind through an “Embracing the Tree” portal and a sound like a sail catching wind.

I then explicitly pivot 100LD from excavation toward expression and embodiment: building Huang (sinew body), physical/manual work, Wuji (standing in the void), and letting the body lead the blueprint forward.

Act Two: Structure, Body Attunement, Redefining Abundance

With this pivot, I stop trying to think my way out of the liminal and start building a repeatable practice of embodiment, creative output, and spiritual anchoring. I finally see the liminal as a studio and a field guide. A Gift.

• I reframe abundance, acknowledging a strong desire for currencies other than money (time, embodied wellness, creativity, relationships, spirituality).
• The takeaway is a balancing move: protect what already feels abundant while building a healthier money relationship.
• I lean into the idea that artists are conduits and connect it to qigong philosophy of bridging Heaven and Earth. Creativity becomes listening and receiving rather than striving.

Then, I began the process of an internal re-patterning through parts work and qigong philosophy, and I shift from a desire for perfection to one of proliferation. A creative flood gate opens.

• IFS sessions show me how I’ve swung to and from extremes all my life because of polarizing parts. Qigong’s meditative posture called Wuji becomes an embodied practice of what Jung calls holding tension between opposing forces. I begin learning to be “self-led” instead of yanked between poles.
• I articulate a new dharma model: dharma can be fluid, like Arnold Schwarzenegger’s multi-act reinventions. His dharma did not change, only attention. I recognize my own ability to shift attention for personal reinvention.
• A teachable framework for navigating the liminal space emerges through a deep and complex metaphor of proprioception (the body’s ability to know where in space our limbs are, how much force to use to pick up objects, or how far to reach for something.) The same methods used to restore the body’s proprioception can be mimicked for our soul: Balance work to stabilize, then heavy work to restore our sense of who we are, what we want, and where we are going. Soul Proprioception.

Act Three: A Tsunami, The Liminality Closing

Around Day 69, I move from “I’m in liminal space” to “I can guide others through liminal space,” and I start building embodied, repeatable containers (habits, qigong teaching reps, frameworks, and 2026 plans) that make that calling real.

• I shift into disciplined embodiment (fitness first), turn my frameworks into teachable artifacts (posts + qigong videos), and I begin naming a clearer vocation: guiding others through liminality, with qigong as the primary delivery path.
• Another poem about dharma flows through me on Day 70.
• A key synchronicity is this recurring concept of paradox and the Third Way (holding tension long enough for a transcendent solution to emerge).
• More metaphors flow through me, giving language for how to move through a liminal season of life.

Another Dream: I watch through large windows as a tsunami approaches. I am calm and curious, unafraid. This is my liminality closing. The waves are my gifts emerging. Peace washes over me as I acknowledge that steadiness precedes clarity.

• Multiple people who have been reading my newsletter and blog begin to share with me how my work is helping them. My accidental YouTube channel grows subscribers and views as I share qigong and art.
• Others cry tears of recognition when they speak to me. I suddenly remember my Heaven journal from Mentally Fit: I said I wanted to be a River Guide (but the river is made of tears), and I realize I am living that exact mythopoetic identity right now.
• I begin to ground this intensity into my real life. Speaking up, sharing my art, sharing qigong, writing more, showing up and offering my gifts in the Shimmer (aka the Internet).
• My blog turns outward and offers guidance for others as I deepen my understanding of holding DUO – Dynamic Unifying Opposition –  between structure and flow.
• The bones (structure) for my business offerings become real. I create (flow) in collaboration with my Creator.

And finally, I finish the project with the 100th post on December 31st, sharing 100 lessons I learned through it all.

Thank you to Erick Godsey for the MF class and that little comment, “try NOT being productive for 30 days”. Thank you to Andrew Walsh for introducing me to qigong two years ago.

This was the hardest and most magnificent experience of my life. I am motivated, at peace, and holding it all lightly. Let’s go!!

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